There is a common phenomenon among spiritual seekers, called TMR, or Too Much Reading. This can give rise to even greater confusion if you start believing that what you read implies something real, rather than expressing the author’s state of mind at the moment s/he wrote it.
For example, people have asked me whether meditation can free your soul from samsara…
A student asked his teacher, “How can I be freed?”
The teacher answered, “Who ever bound you?
Accurate meditation may expose for you that, in reality, there were never such things as souls, samsara or liberation. These are ideas, not real things.
In this way you may realize that there was never anything that could be imprisoned, or freed. It is impossible to escape from a prison that was never built.
In this way, meditation can liberate your soul from samsara. By your realizing that it is all smoke and mirrrors. Nothing real there at all.
Here are some teachings here that may help you with freeing yourself, even from the need to be free:
Or you can just enjoy your imprisonment.
All options open 🙂